Alstrom Point. 

Getting there was one of the best things about it, and it kept getting better and better. 

This was the start of many things. We were leaving Sedona, and on our way to new adventure. My friend had planned an amazing trip kayaking down some slot canyons in Lake Powell. However, due to Covid, the marina was closed. Walking down to the dock it was so hot the air felt like molasses. I was disappointed, but it was so hot I couldn't concentrate on much more than putting on foot in front of the other to get back up to the car. Definitely something to come back to. 

Ok. Change in plans. What to do? Looking at the map, there was a place we could go check out the lake. We drove right down onto the beach. Windy. Busted out the hammock and took an epic picture that captured the mood of the whole trip. 

It was so hot I could barely get in the hammock. I was moving so slow- the wind, the heat. We thought about walking a bit more to explore the area, but decided against it- so much effort in the conditions! We did however, jump in the lake. 


It was refreshingly cold and so welcome. A perfect respite. Looking back I can't believe how slow I was- ordinarily I'm the one who's running around, exploring. It would have seemed like the heat got to me, but I would go back in a heartbeat. The heat made it even more alien.

We kept driving. I learned that the road we were on required a high-clearance vehicle, and we were going over a dirt road that turned into basically just rocks. We got out many times to enjoy the alien landscape, to marvel at the strangeness, to take photos, and just BE. 


The landscape became sand covered by a hard crust. You could see where people decided to go off the road and leave their mark- scarring the sand. Evidence of poor decision making by humans. I had no idea where we were going. 

The way was quiet, we listened to a podcast thriller by Qcode. We got out to take pictures. The road became more rocky, we were just trucking over expansive rocky terrain. 

Arriving... driving up onto a plateau, and looking around in awe. AM I REALLY HERE? Gorgeous. Deserted. Unbelievable view. Out over the water, striated cliffsides rising up from the lake. Far below, houseboats and jet skis streaking across the water. A fire ring at the edge of the cliff. "This is where we're camping!" And instantly I understand the value of an off-road vehicle. 








I really can't say anything more that these pictures haven't already said. There's just so much to see in the world that is beautiful, other-worldly, breathtaking. I mean, places like these may be hard to get to, but not every place is. It's just a matter of prioritizing and making the effort. What do you think is important? What do you prioritize? 

At this stage in this trip, I'm beginning to remember what I thought I would do when I grew up. I thought I would be camping all the time. I thought I would be adventuring because I'd be an adult and I'd be able to do whatever I wanted. I wanted to explore the world, fly on airplanes, stay in fancy hotels. I wanted to be beautiful, with big boobs and a boyfriend who would be my everything. 

Reflecting on this now, I realize that yes I CAN have it all, it's just a matter of choice, intention, belief, and mastery. What I want hasn't much changed after all. I just didn't know that I could have it. I spent a lot of time in the yearning. Being in the wanting. It's taken an adjustment that I'm still working on to be in the HAVING. I already have it all. 

What does it feel like to have everything I always wanted? Clearly I don't have everything. However, I can focus on what I do have, and it may not look like what I imagined. That's a learning- imagining the dream first, then realizing that the realization of the dream may not look exactly the same, but it may have all the qualities. Then you look around and realize, YES, I've had it all along! 

Being in the wanting was a choice as well. It felt familiar and safe. "I wish I had... xyz." A big house, a million dollars, etc. Being in the having is different. It's like, there's nothing to DO! It's being in appreciation, in gratitude. I have a healthy body that feels great and does so much. I have quality friendships and people in my life who will support me at the drop of a dime. I can travel to beautiful places. There are so many beautiful places to go this world, I have it all. 

Have you been here? What was your trip like? I'd love to hear about it. 

Next stop, Grand Canyon. 

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